Internet time has been scarce these past few weeks. As I enter the third trimester of my pregnancy I’m slowing down and sleeping more. Spare moments are spent doing what I can to prepare for the birth of our third child. Another son. I don’t have much to prepare for in regard to gathering things. I’m very much a minimalist when it comes to necessities for a new baby; clothes, cloth diapers, a carrier or two and a few odds and ends are all I need to feel prepared in that sense. Keeping up with the household chores, on the other hand, is proving to be more difficult as hormones begin kicking in that make my joints ache if I push myself too far. The best I can do right now is small tasks here and there each day. With a 7 year old, a 2 year old and a husband running around, I’m lucky to keep up with them all right now. With my nesting instinct kicking in my to-do list is forever growing.
Preparing mentally for labor and birth is something I have yet to make the time to do. It’s slowly creeping up in importance on my to-do list as I have only 9 weeks before I’ll be cleared for a home birth (37 weeks) and 12 weeks until I hit 40 weeks — which history shows I only gestate until about 39 weeks so I’m also mentally preparing for the possibility of yet another early birth. 12 weeks seems like a long time when the number is said out loud, but in reality it goes by so quickly. Especially as the Holidays near.
Labor with my first two children were quick, “textbook easy” and intense which makes me feel like it’s even more important for me to prepare mentally beforehand. When labor is quick, and we’re talking 45 minutes quick, there is no easing into it. It’s more like walking around with your head in the clouds when suddenly shit hits the fan and your world is rocked. Before you have a minute to think, take a breath or really realize and believe what’s happening, you’re holding a brand new baby.
While I have already given birth twice, I still enjoy sifting through birth stories on the internet, watching birth videos and sorting through my own feelings in regard to giving birth again. In doing this I feel as if I’m filling myself full of empowerment which in turn takes away any fears that may be holding me back.
One of the many reasons I do this for myself is the fact that the hormones secreted when scared or anxious do not go hand in hand with birth hormones and fear can actually inhibit a woman’s ability to give birth. That’s not to say that I don’t have fleeting moments while in labor where I’m anxious or scared, but preparing myself beforehand with positivity and empowerment helps in bringing me back to a place where I feel safe and comfortable with my ability.
Liam-ism (my 2 year old) of the day:
Rather than asking someone to move, for help moving something, or for help opening doors/drawers, etc, he has suddenly started saying “open portal” instead.
I’m still unsure of where he picked this up from, though I imagine it came from something Jonas (my 7 year old) has said to or around him.
Music I’m enjoying today: Bitter:Sweet :: A trip-hop duo with jazz like qualities